This work came out of a year defined by impact and residue. I remember it less as narrative than as texture - rubber, heat, and afterimage.
It comes from experiences that did not pass cleanly, but stayed in the body, in memory, in the nervous system.
It comes from experiences that did not pass cleanly, but stayed in the body, in memory, in the nervous system.
The forms in this work are based on 3D scans of my own body.
I used my body as the starting point, not to create a portrait, but to produce evidence.
The scanned body is translated into data, then stretched, fractured, and re-sculpted in digital clay into forms that still carry my presence, but no longer belong entirely to me.
The scanned body is translated into data, then stretched, fractured, and re-sculpted in digital clay into forms that still carry my presence, but no longer belong entirely to me.
The distortions come in part from the policing of my sexuality and masculinity. They come from being read, judged, and assigned before I could arrive at my own sense of self. Over time, that gaze becomes internal. Intimacy becomes charged with fear, shame, and self-surveillance. Desire turns uncertain.
What begins as self becomes image.
Salvation becomes an interface. Forgiveness becomes a button.
Purity becomes a promise offered by the same mechanisms that distort us.
INITIAL 3D SCANS OF MY BODY